HeartLines

Standing barefoot in some forlorn meadow, 
Head bowed, staring at the grass between my toes 
Warmest, firmest of rain washes me away little by little 
Heavy clouds blanket the sky, at war with Earth, while I’m stuck in the   middle

I’m getting vengeful looks from wildflowers and reverent ones from daisies
But I just close my eyes, and try and forget all who’ve forgotten me
Tilting my head up, I greet the heavens
Letting them see who exactly was against them.

This summer is endless, this summer I messed up
June has banished me here, because of my stupid bad-luck
Fallen from grace, I’ve been left to rot away
I can do no more but beg for forgiveness at heavens gates

My soul is heavy, my heart is cold,
I am so young yet I feel so old
Punished with the weight of my wrongdoings,
This age long fight might become my undoing

Soaked to the bone, my skin heavy with Earths tears,
If I am trapped in this anxious state, I will know nothing but fear
Yet, something about these wistful flowers, surrounded by trees, this glimmering grass,
Gives me the courage to ask:

“Why was I granted a mouth, if no one will listen, ears, with no one to respond?
This life, which is ever so lonely and long?
Two eyes that are permanently cast down...
Legs that will never travel, arms that could never hold someone safe and sound?”

My head lowers back towards the ground, I curse this endless summer
The sticky heat, rich sun, green day’s that cause my endless blusters
But nothing feels so good as rain pouring from the sky
That just cleanses you back to what you were on your first day

Inhaling the damp smell of forest, tasting life on my tongue,
My mind is slowly, gently coming undone
As rain pelts my face, as the breeze tickles my cheeks,
I think, I will finally be at peace.

Clouds break slightly, letting a beam of that rich sunlight through
It shines down on this meadow and everything starts to glow
The rain still pours around us, but this spot is dry
My thoughts clear up, and I can’t help but cry

This is the summer I realized not who I’m not, but who I could be
This is the seemingly endless summer I was set free
This is the summer I could finally see
This is the summer I realized I’m just...me.